Dear Diary #01

Dear Diary,
It was our anniversary this week and it nearly went forgotten because Baby C is going to be one in 4 days!! Everyone did warn me, but I am genuinely shocked with how quickly this year has gone, and I am having many mixed feelings about it all.
These past two weeks I have spent an inordinate amount of time scrolling through pictures on my phone of me pregnant, and Baby C when we just brought him home. I feel guilty for missing those days but I do!
I miss when he used to lay on my chest and sleep soundly. I miss breastfeeding him and the bonding time that gave us. I miss being the only one who could settle him when he was crying. I miss spending every waking minute with him. I miss so much of that time but then remember how much I giggled yesterday when he waddled bare butt to his bath and remind myself to appreciate this time right now – as this will be gone in a blink of eye as well. Seriously – EVERYTHING NEEDS TO SLOW DOWN!
His birthday party is on Sunday and a lot of this past week has been all about getting things ready. I really don’t like planning events, never have been, never will be, so we decided to keep it low-key and have a family only party at home, with food and cake. There is still 30 + people coming, but that is the smallest we can ever make one of our parties #bigfamily
Hubby has been sourcing a bouncy castle, and planning the food, and I have been getting things ready to dress up the house and sort the party bags. It hasn’t been too stressful thankfully, and is what I love about a family-only party at home – I do not feel pressure for it to be perfect and everyone will pitch in to help out on the day.
We celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary yesterday. Yes…April is a big month in our house. We are useless at the romance stuff, so no cards or gifts were exchanged but, at the insistence of hubby, we did go out for a lovely steak dinner which was AMAZING. I was really tired all day yesterday (Baby C has been waking a lot in the night recently), so I was trying to get out of it, but Hubby was having none of it and I am so glad he didn’t let me flake out! I love him for that because we really needed some time to ourselves and we had a great evening.
The next few days are going to be busy finalising everything for his party and even though I am looking forward to it I also can’t wait for it to be over and I’m not even going to feel guilty about that!
I’m off to bed so I will check back in next week!
Be Grateful..Always!

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